Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Sad News

I don't have good news to report. My AMH test results came back and the test showed my ovarian reserve is very poor (0.01), normal range is 0.70 to 3.5. So I will not be able to be an egg donor for my sister and more than likely the changes of me becoming pregnant again are very slim. Basically my biological clock has ran out.

When the doctor told me this all I could say was Wow, how can this be? I got pregnant twice within 5 months and I have a healthy little one year old. He said that I was lucky or something has changed in the last two years. He also stated that in the 25 years that he has worked he has never seen a woman get pregnant with the result that I had. I asked if the test can fluctuate and he said No. It gets even worse, he said that I will more than likely start menopause early, lucky me.

I do not believe in luck. I believe that God blessed me with Thomas and if its meant to be I will be blessed with another baby. In the end he has the last say, not some test or some doctor.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

FSH test

FSH game back normal. Actually it came back in the excellent range at 5.9!!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Another test

Finally my good old friend showed up after being on provera for 10 days. Today I had my FSH test and they also are testing for AMH (Anti Mullerian Hormone) that will one will take 6-10 days to get back. I should have my FSH test results back today.

My sister doctor just can't give it up. I know he's doing his job and just testing everything under the moon. But give it up, all my other test have came back normal. I've been pregnant twice and have a perfectly healthy 13 month old. I'm not like my sister......he can't get that out of his head. He seems to think since we are identical twins that we have the same problems. Not true, I never had radiation treatment, I don't have graves disease or the anti ovarian antibodies.

I will not stop believe that everything is OK and once we start this process again, hopefully next month we will prove them wrong. I have full faith in God that he is going to take care of all of us!!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Great News!!!

My test for the anti ovarian antibodies came back negative. As soon as I start my cycle they will do the FSH test! When that comes back normal we will start again. This time I will inject the hormones into my stomach...yikes! But well worth it for my sister!

I have never wanted my period to start so bad. And NO I'm not pregnant, sorry people! The hormones have just really messed me up. So if I don't get it on my own. I will get a pill by the end of the month to kick start it.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Good news!

My TSH test result came back normal so we can rule that out! Anti ovarian antibodies test should be back in 10days and then when my friend finally decides to show up they can draw the blood for the FSH.

Thomas with his Uncle Timmy (my sister's husband)

Thomas with Aunt B (she means the world to me and is the best aunt in the world)

Please keep praying! Once the other's come back normal, then we can try again!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

I’m going to be 100% honest with myself, this is emotional starting to take a toll on me. I don’t mean to be hateful, but I seriously want to rip my sister’s doctor head off. I just got off the phone with him. He wanted to know my thoughts and he did agree that his could just be a fluke thing, but also wanted be to keep in mind that there may be a possibility that I will have problems conceiving again. WHAT? I DON’T BELIEVE IT. Not until I see the blood work that shows that something is wrong. I want to scream, ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO ME? PLEASE EXPLAIN HOW I GOT PREGNANT TWICE? PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME HOW I HAVE A HEALTHY ONE YEAR OLD? If it’s genetic, wouldn’t I’ve had problems getting pregnant before this?

Now he’s telling me that I may not start my cycle for another 6 weeks? WHAT? You just said last week that I should start sometime this week? I’ve called the Reproductive doctor to see if we can go ahead and get the blood work done for the TSH and anti ovarian bodies, since we don’t have to wait on my cycle. The FSH blood work has to be drawn on day 3 of my cycle. Waiting for a nurse to call me back.

Not sure what to think

Just received a phone call from sister and her doctor seems to think that I'm having the same issues as my sister and he hasn't even gotten my blood results, heck I haven't even had them taken yet because I haven't started my period yet. They can't do the blood work until the third day of my cycle, how can you come up with this conclusion. You can just go off a few blood results and some ultrasound and come to the conclusion that I have conception problems.

I want this doctor to tell me how come on got pregnant so quickly? Tell me why I got pregnant twice within 5 months of each other? Tell me how I have my precious little boy? The doctor is suppose to give me a call this afternoon, I will also be speaking with my doctor and will let you all know what they have to say.

This is seriously insane and makes no sense. I wonder what his excuse is going to be next when we do get the blood results back and they are normal.


My sister and I and are husband have been going through a lot these last few months. As you all know my sister can not get pregnant on her own due to her thyroid disease and the anti-ovarian antibodies in her blood stream. We were suppose to have egg retrieval on Monday, but unfortunately I did not respond to any medicine. This could be due to a lot of factors. First thing is they need to rule out that I'm not starting to have the same issues as my sister. So once those blood test come back normal, we will try again. It also could have been just a fluke thing, bad batch of medicine, medicine not absorbing into my blood stream due to lack of fat on my body or I ovulated on my own. After speaking with my doctor she agrees that I'm very healthy and have no issues with irregular cycles and that it was a fluke thing.

This next time around I will inject the medicine into my stomach instead of my thigh due to the muscle in my thigh. I was bruising a lot, so the doctor thinks that I could have been injecting it into the muscle instead of fat.

I'm not going to lie, I was extremely heartbroken (and cried for days). But not for me, for my sister. I want this so badly to happen for them. But I have total faith in God and know he will take care of us and in the end this will work.

Please keep praying for us.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

First sono and blood work

Had my first sono and blood work done yesterday. The sono look great, the doctor was really happy with the result. They are still waiting for the blood work to get back. Yesterday they took nine big tubes of blood from me. I felt like I was going to faint after the fifth one, I didn't know I had that much blood in my body!

I'm still on my lupron shots and I start the other three shots this Friday. So I will be taking three shots in the morning and one in the evening. Sometime between the 25-28 they will retrieve the eggs. I have another sono and blood work on the 22nd of July and that should have a good idea when they are ready for egg retrieval.

So excited for my sister and Tim! I love my sister! She is the one person in this world, next to my husband, God and my family who's opinion really matters to me. I know that she will always be there for me no matter the situation!

Please keep us in your prayers these next two weeks!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

This Friday is when I get to start sticking myself with needles. Not going to lie, I was a little overwhelmed when all the medicine arrived last week. Lots of needles and lots of medicine. I can’t even describe the feelings that are going through my head. Mostly feelings that I just want this to work for my sister! I have to keep having faith in God and know he will take care of her! She is very special to me and I know she would do the same for me and Dustin.

Thursday, June 18, 2009


I received my calendar last week and also started taking my birth control to help regulate me on Brandi’s cycle. I should get my medicine for the shots this Friday and then July 3 is when I have to start giving myself shots with Dustin’s help since two of them have to be given to me in my lower back. We are still on for July 27th or 28th for the egg retrieval. Once they retrieve the eggs the doctors will do their magic and then place them in my sister three days later.

I can’t even express how much a want this to work for my sister. I have total faith in God that he will take care of all us. She means the absolute world to be. Words can’t express how much a love her! I just ask everyone to keep praying for us, it really does mean a lot.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Great NEWS!!

Good News! Looks like we will still stay on the same schedule for the egg retrieval which will happen around July 27th. Today they took my IUD out and has soon I start my cycle I will be put on birth control for a month and start taking my Lupron shots. Then in July I will start taking the other two hormone shots to help over stimulate my ovaries and by the end of July they should be able to retrieve the eggs and then implant them in my sister.

Please keep us all in your prayers!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Minor Glitch

Just found out yesterday that they are going to have to take my IUD out during this process. I'm on the Mirena and absolutely love it. But Brandi's doctor said it has to come out for a few months because he thinks it won't let me make a lot of eggs and the goal is to make as many at possible.

I kind of figured this would have to take place since it is releasing a small amount of hormone. Now I'm just waiting to hear from my doctor about how the insurance will cover to have another one replaced. I have really great insurance and it covered the first 100 percent, I know amazing! She thinks she can justify it and have it covered again that way my sister doesn't have to pay the full cost to have another put in me and trust me I'm getting another one put in because taking a pill everyday would not happen. Since Dustin and I don't want to have another one for 3 or 4 more years, we don't want any accidents happening.

Don't get me wrong I love being a mommy but we want Thomas to have his time with mommy and daddy without turning his world upside down with a little sister...HA! Plus I really want to concentrate on my career for a couple of years. But don't worry we will have another one just not anytime soon!

The downfall is this sets mys sister back a couple of months. So more than likely they won't be retrieving the eggs from me until August or September. Please keep praying for us!

Just look at my cute little monster!!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

First Appointment

Our appointment went great yesterday. Have to admit everything was a little overwhelming but in the end this journey is going to be so worth it. They went over all the shots I will be taking and the process of when the egg retrieval will happen.

These doctors don't mess around. They will be doing the egg retrieval around the end of July. June will consist of them regulating our cycle and then July I will be taking shots to stimulate my ovaries a little more, getting blood work done and lots of ultrasounds. By the end of July they will retrieve the eggs and then 3-5 days later implant them in my sister.

I'm so excited for Tim and Brandi and just ask everyone to keep us in your prayers the next two months. I truly believe God will take care of us and Brandi will become the mother she deserves to be!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

May 27th

Our first appointment is coming up next week. We will be meeting with the doctor, getting blood work done and crossing our fingers that we can start this process soon. The good thing is our cycles are only two days apart, so not sure how much they will have to do to get them regulated together since they are already so close together.

I can't even tell you how much I want this to work for my sister. Hopefully by August or September she will pregnant. I'm so excited for what the future holds for her and Tim. I know my sister and Tim will make wonderful parents. They already love Thomas like he is there own and spoil him rotten by showering him with gifts all the time.

Please keep us in your prayers next week as we travel to Illinois. I will let you all know how the appointment goes next week.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Our Journey

In the next few months my twin sister and I are going to be taking a special journey together. As many of you know we are identical twin sisters. We are very close. We have a connection that is unbreakable and very hard to explain. I have two other siblings who I love very much, but the connection I have with them is different. Brandi and I have a very special bond and we would do anything for each other, I would give my life for her.

Both her and her husband are wonderful people. They have been trying to have a baby for the last 2 ½ years. My sister also has Graves Disease and has had two rounds of radiation treatment to control the disease. For some reason she is having Ovarian failure and the doctors told her the only way she will become a mother is through a egg donor or adoption. Her uterus looks fine, so she can carry a baby. For some reason her body won’t create good quality eggs.

This is where I come in. I’m crying as I write this, just because I have seen the heartache this has caused my sister. Through a lot of prayer and all four of us talking and the fact that my sister means more to me than anyone can imagine, I’m going to be her egg donor. Our first appointment is May 27 at 9:30. We will be doing blood work, going over my medical history and meeting with a psychologist. Once they get our cycles regulated then I will have to take shots for about 2 weeks twice a day and the hope is they will be able to get 6-8 good eggs from me.

Since I live in Missouri and she lives in Illinois, I will have to drive down to Illinois for the first visit and then they will work with my doctor in Missouri for all the ultrasounds. When they retrieve the eggs we will have to go to Indianapolis since the fertility specialist works in Illinois and Indiana.

I have started another blog so everyone can follow our journey. My sister is also going to start another blog. Right now you can link to her everyday blog here.

Please keep us in your thoughts during this journey. I’m praying that it works and have faith that it will and my sister will become the mother she deserves to be. She is an awesome, kind, beautiful, loving person. She is my best friend and I know she would do the same for me. Our love and bond is so strong. So much love is going to go into creating this little baby. I just ask you keep us all in your prayers!

Click her to follow our journey and become a follower through this process!

God Bless!

Tim, Brandi, Me and Dustin